I am sitting in my living room ...... alone. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! No one is home but me and Jillian and she is taking a nap. I have been busy sewing bumper pads, dust ruffles and trying to get ready for our new baby. We should get a placement soon and I want to be ready and not have these projects looming over my head.

I am also keeping busy so that I don't have to many chances to think about my oldest daughter moving away next month. Not looking forward to having to have a long distance relationship with someone I love as much as I love that girl. I guess I will learn how as I really have no choice HU? ( Caleb your evil!!)

That's all there is to tell today. If I can get all of this stuff done I will post some pictures. Don't hold your breath.

Stressed

Well this blogging thing use to be my therapy but since my nosey son in law, ( yes you know who you are!!) found my blog I don't feel free to express my feelings. Nothing I would write about him I love him but lets face it, some things he just doesn't need to know. So what should I do? Rip his arm off and beat him to death with it you say? I've thought of that but he needs both of them to wait on my daughter hand and foot. ( she is a princess you know!?)

I guess I should have made this thing by invite only. Any suggestions?? No boy, that doesn't include you!!

Open Letter To Walmart aka Armpit of America

Dearest Walmart,

This letter is to inform you that I am sick and tired of asking your employees a question only to get a half cocked smile and a nod. Do any of the people stocking shelves speak English? If I yelled " Immigration" at the top of my lungs would they all run for the exits? Don't get me wrong I am not against people from another country coming here and making a life and a living for themselves. I am however against said people being put in a position to work with the public and not be able to communicate. Hhhhhhh!!

Also could you please inform your male employees that it is NOT OK to stare at my teenage daughter. I have been to prison ( OK I was just visiting someone ) and I am not afraid to go back. I will slap the taste right out of your mouth for you!! By the way the deodorant is found in the pharmacy area...just so ya know. While your there you might by a toothbrush and some toothpaste. I'm just saying.

On the subject of your shopping carts ( better know to us southern girls as a buggy )
Do they ALL pull to the left and say cuchuga, cuchuga, cachuga, when you push them? Do you buy them new with these features? Maybe your sticker passer outers could wipe a little disinfectant over the handle bars instead of giving the stank eye to everyone that crosses their path. I feel like I need to put a hazmat suit on my baby every time we shop there and I have to put her in the cart, especially now with the hog fever on the rampage.

I must close this letter now as I am late for my anger management class.

Writters Block

I have wanted to update my blog for weeks now but have had nothing I think is of any interest to say. Can't say that it's changed any but here goes. My second oldest daughter Shelby just graduated from high school last Friday night. I am so proud of her. She wants to go to college for something in the medical field. Not really sure exactly what yet. We have an appointment with her councelor.

Still waiting to be licensed. I know your shocked right? Still waiting on Shelby's fingerprints and whatever other foolishness they can come up with. Once your info is submitted to DCYF they say that your file should be processed in 72 hours. They have had mine exactly one month today. Hhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! Oh well maybe I will have a nice quiet summer.


My husband is out of town for his job for this entire week. So far so good but I do miss him. I have cleaned the house and done all the laundry....what now? It is nasty weather all week here so no swimming in the pool. My BFF and her daughter are coming over to have a Pride and Prejudice movie sleep over later this week. We are idiots and will most definitely act more immature than our 13 and 14 year old daughters. I love that about her. Thank God for a friend that I can be myself with.

iPhone illiterate

I have not sewn anything as of yet. My sister had a procedure done ( all is well with that thank God! ) and I have been helping her out a little so there is my fabulous excuse. However I am determined to do it today. Along with a hundred other things. Wal-Mart is included in that list I am sad to say.

I got myself an iPhone last night. Lets just say that I am less than computer savvy.....and I like it that way. I am going to make myself learn this thing. It is intimidating knowing that my phone is vastly smarter than me. Dang it!

My baby boy is getting so big. My daughter had him in the church nursery and sent me a picture. I need to go and get him for a few days. I miss him. I talked to his grandmother and she said his mom ( he was a foster baby I had for 6 months ) was not doing well with her case plan and dad is incarcerated.....again. In the 10 years I have fostered this is one of the things I have spent countless hours trying to figure out. Why can't they see past their own selfish desires and put their children first? I will probably be an old lady in my rocking chair still wondering the same thing. Is it selfishness, laziness or just dumb as a bag of hammers?

The picture I have posted today is of J and her dad at the American Girl store in NYC. She ( I ) was so excited about picking her doll out that would look just like her. What a dad!! He was really into helping her look at the different outfits and talking over small details with her. I love that about him.

Take my ovaries....please!!

Our case worker emailed me today and said that they have finally submitted our file. ( thought is was already done.) But that FSMO would probably kick it back with more requirements. I let her know that I still have both of my ovaries if she would like to offer those. They are about the only things they have not asked for. SRSLY!!!! I am just enjoying the peace and quiet before the storm of a newborn. If they ask for anything too outrageous.....I. AM. DONE.
Enough said.

Hubby will soon be gone for a week at a time. His new position has him traveling between Arizona (where his aunt is the Governor, Jan Brewer Rocks!! ) and California. While he is gone I will miss him in the day time and wish that I could pull his remaining 3 hairs out of his head at night, when he is not here to help with bath and bed for J. I know....I should cherish bath time and use it to spend time with her. Truth? I hate, and have always hated, giving kids a bath. There I said it. I do spend lots of time ( all but when she is asleep, and sometimes even then ) with her so I don't feel so bad. I'm not sure why it is such a chore to me.

Tomorrow I am going to attempt to sew a pillowcase dress. If I am successful I will post a pic. If not I will not mention it again.......and neither will you. ( hint, hint!! ) I've been wanting to sew something for J. I sewed a lot for my older girls when they were young. They always acted so excited about what I had made them. I want J to feel as special as I think she is. I love that kid!!

I see my hit counter slowly go up but I don't have very many comments. Anybody actually reading this thing or are you taking off as soon as you see my profile pic? Just askin!!

Upate

I am back to report the "progress" made last Thursday. A social worker came and spent the morning at my house to, once again fill out our family profile. You know, the one we have done twice already and they lost. I love this particular person. She is one of the only people in the agencies office that we are being licensed through that I have had a good experience with.
She says she has everything she needs and that she was hoping to turn it in to FSMO this week and after that it will go to Tallahassee . Nine months of this is too long. I have been licensed before. It's not like we were starting from scratch. On the other hand the longer they take the more chance I might actually have a quite summer. I haven't had one of those in a long time. Since I am only taking newborns I know my nights of sleep are numbered as well. It is worth it though. I love babies.

I took Shelby for her FBI prints last Friday. They said 3-4 days. They told my best friend that about 6 weeks ago when she took her son that had just turned 18 . I can see why people do not want to go through this to be licensed. I am just praying that if for some reason God does not want us to do this it will not go through. Once your heart is turned toward fostering it is hard to stop.

Today I am trying to make a master plan of managing my house cleaning. I know, any idiot should be able to clean a house without a list right? Well not this one. I get side tract. I am going to have everyday chores and then assign a focus room for every day of the week that I deep clean. We'll see how that works. I have to have my house clean. I am a grump ( more so than usual) when it is not. I have OCD and don't mind it a bit. It works for me!!

Time to close .....it's lightning!!!