Still Waiting

We are headed back to Florida this coming Sunday. May 3rd is the day the judge decides between our family and the aunt ( in law once removed). I am hoping that he chooses us but not expecting it. The grandmother of the babies half sibling tells me I need to speak it. That there is power in the word and that I need to claim that I am that babies mother. What I believe is that I trust in Gods hand on my life and the life of that baby. I am asking him to have his way in this and that he help me be happy even if his way doesn't match my desire to be her mom. I am ready for this to be over. We are becoming licensed for foster/adoption here in the state of Texas. It is very different from my experience in Florida. Not sure if it's a good thing or a bad one. I've said a million times that I will never foster again. I guess when it comes down to it this is my ministry. It's what God has placed in my heart to do and though it is not always fun, it is always rewarding to feel like I am doing what I've been called to do. I am going to try not to complain so much while I'm doing it this time. The children are not the problem, it's the system that causes most of the complaining.

Better Than Winning the Lottery

I received a text yesterday from the GAL in Florida about our baby girl. He said that he would be recommending to the judge that our family be the ones to adopt her. We have to wait until April 11 before we know the final decision. I am praying we get to be her forever family. I have missed her so much. She just turned a year old on March 27. Needless to say we will have a huge birthday bash for her. I have already bought her outfit months ago in hopes we would be with her. I have all of her Christmas presents still rapped and ready for her. This has been hard on my family and we have spent a ton of money going back and forth from Texas to Florida but it will be worth it all if she gets to come home. This is going to make the aunt, ( not blood related, only by marriage and they are getting a divorce) is not going to be a happy girl. But she didn't show up until the last minute and her home situation is not stable. I love, love, love that baby.

I'm a Texan

I now live in Fort Worth Texas. We moved here December 25. I know, a lovely day to move right? I am still adjusting. I have lived in Florida my entire life. I've gone to the same church for the past 15 years and frankly I needed a change. The only thing I am missing about Florida is my family that still lives there.

We are waiting to find out if the GAL in Florida is going to recomend to the court for our family to adopt the baby girl we had down there since birth. We had to leave her due to some errors made by the agency we fostered through. Go figure. I would be surprised if they pick us. The easier choice is the aunt ( soon to be no relation to the baby due to a divorce) they can just give her permanent gaurdianship and not have to pay for an adoption. Idiots!

Deep in the heart of Texas

Wow, it's been forever since I have posted anything. We are currently in Texas at my husbands apartment. Yes people you heard me right, My husbands apartment. That always gets peoples attention. He is out here for his job and will continue to be for an undetermined amount of time. So we came out for this month and love it here. He is only able to come home to Florida once a month. Not loving that!! We will be back out here again for a few weeks in November.

In the world of foster care lots have changed. We still have our boy. He was 1 on the 17th. We also have a 5 month old little girl that we have had since she was 7 days old. They are in respite care while we have been gone. I miss them both so much. The baby girl is with my best friend who is also crazy and a foster parent. The boy is with another foster family. His mother would never give us the OK to take him out of state. She don't like us much you know. I have shopped soooo much for those two since Ive been out here. Can't wait to see them in the new clothes.

We have a staffing for the baby girl next Monday. They are going to be changing her case plan goal from reunification to adoption. I hope we are the ones that are blessed to be her parents. I love that girl sooo much. Our boy's case plan goal is still reunification. He has almost been with us a year. I hope if his mother is going to get him back she does it soon. I would rather him just stay with us for the next 18-20 years. Then she can have him back. Just in time to pay for college.

Yes, I know I'm nice like that.

Life is good. I am enjoying my family and trying to thank God a lot more for them. Right now I feel like I'm his favorite. The picture shows you why I might think that!!

Where did everybody go?

Have I mentioned I stink at blogging? Well for the two of you that use to follow my sad little blogging I apologize. Life is busy I ......am lazy. Nothing else to say about that.

We are still fostering. Right now we have a little boy 7 months old that is the cutest brown bear you could ever imagine. I could and have eat his face!! His sister is with her bio aunt but the boy is not related to the aunt so he stays with me for now. The aunt says she will take him on the weekends and eventually full time. We will see. Not holding my breath.

My oldest girl has been married a year this month. She and her husband are in Kansas City for now while he is in Law school. I miss her but I think I have adjusted pretty well. Life is good. I am going to try my best to keep up with the daily blogging. It drives me crazy when other people don't update theirs daily. I'm still dying to find out what happened to Owen.......you know who you are!! ;-)

A Day Of Fun

Today I went for my yearly bit of fun at the gyn. Followed by a lovely mammogram. I hate this time of year. It is torment!!!! And I worry for weeks before I go and then feel sick until I get the good report. I don't like this part of myself. I want to be one of those people that just assume everything is fine instead of worrying about what if it's not. Makes me feel stupid.

I have a 31/2 month old baby girl. She is so precious!! So far she is a really good baby. Lets hope it stays that way. I am going to be homeschooling my 5 year old this year. I have never home schooled elementary grades, only middle and high school. I am excited, I love to spend time with her. She loves to learn.

My weekend away with my husband was sooooooo wonderful. I am realizing what an amazing husband I have. I am also realizing how I have taken him for granted and I'm really praying and asking God to make me the wife he deserves. I am thankful for a man that puts his family before himself.

10 more pounds!! That is all I have to be at my goal weight and it might as well be 50. I am so close but I am finding it hard to get motivated again. Dang chocolate!!

Two for One

Since my last post my sweet little girl that was placed with me left to go home and now I have two, two year olds. Yes as a matter of fact I AM crazy. I was going to the DCF office to pick up one and then my phone rang and well you know what happens when your a foster parent and the phone rings! One is just until her foster mom comes back from vacation and the other is for two weeks until a group home opens up so that she can be with her siblings. Did I mention one of these children speaks NO English? Have I mentioned I speak NO Spanish? Theres a whole lot of sign language going on here.

I really miss my girl. She called me yesterday and I cried like the idiot I am. I am happy that she is enjoying herself and I know she will love going to school. I just wish she were close enough for me to get a hug from more than 3-4 times a year. ( stupid boy, stole my girl!!)

I will have a little peace and quiet today. One of the babies has visitation with her mother so the caseworker is coming to pick her up at 11:30 and she will be gone until 2:30. I plan to make a mad rush around the house to clean the things I haven't been able to get to since the dynamic duo got here. Makes me tired to think about it.